PUG PRINCE

February 25th marked the day since my last suicide attempt. There was a time when I couldn’t last 1 month without trying to end my life, so I want to allow myself to feel good about this, and not just take it lightly cause this is a big deal! These are just a few things that have changed over the last year for me: I was recently discharged from therapy after over a year of being seen. I’ve got my self harm under control. I do my best and I don’t do it every day anymore. That still counts as progress. I’m on new medication because I was self-aware enough to notice that I was getting depressed again. I speak to my friends constantly and I let them know when I need some support to keep going. I have a good balance between independence and knowing when to ask for help. I don’t have panic attacks just from walking down to the ground floor of the flat where I live. I can travel alone. I can make appointments myself. I can make phone calls. I can handle being in touch with lots of people and I can organise meeting them too. I’m four months on hormones. I’ve improved my relationship with food and work daily on that issue. I don’t want to die every day that I wake up anymore.

I’m doing so much better.
I did this for myself, my family, and my friends. I did it with help, but ultimately, I made it to this point myself.

Well done, me.

tooruoikawa

“what will your kids think of that tattoo?”
my kids aren’t going to give 2 shits because i’m not going to raise them to be a judgmental asshole like yours did

okaytrue

me: *refraining from self destructive behaviour*
me: this is boring
me: *engages in self destructive behavior*
me: i am an idiot and regret this immensly

okaytrue

me: *refraining from self destructive behaviour*
me: this is boring
me: *engages in self destructive behavior*
me: i am an idiot and regret this immensly

okaytrue

me: *refraining from self destructive behaviour*
me: this is boring
me: *engages in self destructive behavior*
me: i am an idiot and regret this immensly

okaytrue

me: *refraining from self destructive behaviour*
me: this is boring
me: *engages in self destructive behavior*
me: i am an idiot and regret this immensly

skinnykittylady1

If you were a talented child who grew into an anxious adult with fragile self worth and a perfectionist streak that makes you abandon things if you’re not instantly good at them raise your hand ✋🏻